Train

So two days ago, we finished a mutual night shift at 6:30 AM (Yes, I joined Shannon for her final shift.) and headed straight to check out of our hotel, pack up, and make it on to our train by 8:30… in a city of 8 million.  Making it in good time to the station, we felt a bit of relief as we’d had a friend miss a similar train earlier in the week.  Joining the crowds through the gates and down on to the platform, we were reminded that giant and heavy suitcases on wheels are mistakes in China.  Don’t get me wrong… giant and heavy suitcases without wheels are worse.  But the point here is that backpacks are your friends.

Anyway…

As we approached the train, our car’s doors weren’t opened yet.  As well, no one to check tickets was there yet.  Logically (we thought), we’ll simply wait in line.  But logic can prove to be fleeting some days.  So we stood and waited in line, while chunks of the crowd started to pry open the train windows and heave their bags, their friends, and themselves through them up into the waiting train car.

Now we had tickets for seats, so our only concern was finding space enough to store our beastly luggage somewhere other than on our laps.  When we finally did board the train, the car was already filled to over capacity.  The aisle up which one walks and wheels luggage is exactly (within half an inch) the width of our beastliest suitcase… meaning if ANYONE or ANYTHING is in that aisle, you have a problem.  In a car already filled beyond capacity… you’re likely getting the picture… there were plenty of anyones and anythings in our way.  And Murphy was in full effect on this early morning: After entering the train at seat #1, we observed our tickets to be #’s 63-64.  Yes, those are the ones at the opposite end of the filled-to-more-than-capacity train car, as far as possible from where our oh-so-big bags currently stood.

Sigh.

Twenty sweat-filled minutes later, we had beastly bags up on shelves, and seats under our butts.  I forgot to mention that all this crowded maneuvering and body-to-body positioning took place in early morning weather of 30+ degrees with higher humidity than anything home gets.  I was glad I wore my grubby clothes for travel day—those might not be coming home.  And no, don’t worry—I won’t miss them.  I had the gift of sitting in them for 8 hours of sweating after they were already dirty.  Those clothes and me… we’re real tight.

So I know you’re asking…

“Jason, how can I too have this rich experience?”

Well, let me tell you… all this can be had for the low price of 39 yuan.  Yes, that’s right… you can travel 8 hours across the country for all of $5 too.  And just think of the memories!

Being Wholly His

Watchman Nee, a Chinese Christian and church leader right up until his death in prison in 1972, wrote a classic book called “The Normal Christian Life”. Below is a passage from it. Is this normal for you? It seems that it’s supposed to be.

When the Galilean boy brought his bread to the Lord, what did the Lord do with it? He broke it. God will always break what is offered to Him. He breaks what He takes, but after breaking it He blesses and uses it to meet the needs of others. After you give yourself to the Lord, He begins to break what was offered to Him. Everything seems to go wrong, and you protest and find fault with the ways of God. But to stay there is to be no more than just a broken vessel–no good for the world because you have gone too far for the world to use you and no good for God either because you have not gone far enough for Him to use you. You are out of gear with the world, and you have a controversy with God. This is the tragedy of many a Christian.

My giving of myself to the Lord must be an initial fundamental act. Then, day by day, I must go on giving to Him, not finding fault with His use of me, but accepting with praise even what the flesh finds hard. That way lies true enrichment.

I am the Lord’s and now no longer reckon myself to be my own, but acknowledge in everything His ownership and authority. That is the attitude God delights in, and to maintain it is true consecration. I do not consecrate myself to be a missionary or a preacher; I consecrate myself to God to do His will where I am, be it at school, office or kitchen or wherever He may, in His wisdom, send me. Whatever He ordains for me is sure to be the very best, for nothing but good can come to those who are wholly His.

May we always be possessed by the consciousness that we are not our own.